Stolen- You're Beautiful (Tae Kyung and Mi Nam/Nyu)

I thought it would be alright to upload this video but then I did not know that this one got a copyright issue...it is so sad...i uploaded a video to express my thoughts and share it to others but then..it feels like i did something wrong...it feels like i should not have uploaded this...

I worked hard for this and i even dedicated this to those people who watched my video...I wish i could make my own video...

i wish...

i am so sad...

Simply IRONIC

Hi there..again?!haha,,,just wanna share what's in my mind right now...Well, this time it's a movie plot...

Simply IRONIC

Jian is an out-of-school-youth and a car expert. She loves to fix cars in her mini garage. She got this extaordinary charisma with GIRLS! ohhhlala...yeah! girls NOT BOYS! though everyone knows that she is...well, she REALLY is...a GIRL. Her best friend, as how she calls herself, Mia is her former maid who has decided to live with her after her boss, Jian's father kicked her out because of "negligence". There's this young girl in town who used to be Jian's schoolmate who has a huge crush on her. That girl's name is Sha Jin. Sha Jin has an older brother who is a lawyer named, Eun Ha. Eun Ha after discovering that his sister is obsessed with Jian (whom she thought a lesbian...), he went home all the way from America. He went to Jian's place. At first, he just get there just to investigate but then suddenly, they went into an argument.

After, more rough days with Eun Ha, Jian's father suddenly came and asked her to come back to their mansion again. Jian is a daughter of a business tycoon so she belongs to a prominent family...a family of LAWYERS but then a year ago, she dropped out of law school and left her grandiose life. Her father thinks that a year is enough for her "playing". In the end, Jian left...because..."I may be the first one who left but then...you're the first one who...simply...stopped caring". Unknown to Jian, this conversation was heard by Eun Ha who happened to pass by during that time.

At night, Eun Ha went to Jian's place to look for his sister. He saw Jian and felt guilty. Jian asked him if he's busy, since he's looking for his sister, he said yes and then he left feeling so confused. While he's driving, Sha Jin called and informed him that she's home already. Eun Ha went back to Jian's place and saw her drinking soju, alone. He tried to stop her but she's just too stubborn so he decided to drink with her instead. Things changed since then but they still argue because of Sha Jin and so many excuses from both of them who couldn't admit to themselves that they like each other and sure, girls in town will NEVER admit this...

Tarot Reading

I visited the Astrology.com and then had a tarot reading....The Tarot card said....

The Looking Back position reveals past experience, challenge, or issues that may have an influence on current perspective or level of intimacy.

The King of Wands (reversed) in this position suggests that your love life may have become dull, unoriginal, or uninspired, or your relationship devoid of passionate expression or commitment, but not necessarily of love, and a midlife crisis or selfish pursuits might have led to infidelity or an excess of indiscretion. None of this needed to be, however, for it could have been that injury, illness, depression, sexual dysfunction, or a lack of direction was the culprit that led to such acting out or instability.

The stress or burden of having gone in so many different directions, trying to keep up, or with others relying on his support, motivation, style, or morale could have become debilitating or even patronizing, and there was a chance that with his creativity stifled, his power disrespected, or his liberty restricted, the energy of this King could simply have become unplugged from the relationship altogether. Rather than being a prime example or paragon of a virile, productive, dominant "man's man," this King could have come to be a "poser," appearing scattered, compulsive, suspicious, nostalgic, or disorganized; a "one hit wonder" turning a blind eye or deaf ear to the truth, or using what was left of his charisma or charm to his own ends or to salvage his dignity.

With interference to his routine or ritual, or with his honor, reputation, or position at stake he might have attempted to relive the glory days or prove he's still got "it" through indiscriminate, abusive, unprotected, or self-destructive thrill seeking crusades of sex, drugs, or rock n' roll, lashing out, or other examples of "living dangerously" (or its counterpart of self-righteous abstinence, denial, or excuses) that kept him on the move. The bottom line however, might have been a bruised ego, performance anxiety, or a deflated sense of sexual prowess, desirability, or purpose, particularly if there were issues with follow through, procedure, or control.

As a visionary influence, he was encouraged by visible results, pats on the back, or the feverish, passionate frenzy he incited in others, but without these, or without his props, gadgets, instruments, tools, or toys, he could have had difficulty reigning in his restlessness or intolerance. He might have felt censored, abandoned, embarrassed, old-fashioned, or trapped, or without an audience, home or fan base to give him value, or to revive and renew his energy and confidence.

Ultimately, this influence simply may not have been able to rise to the occasion, challenge, or competition, or keep up with the changing rules in the game of love, and how he got through this could have been dependent on the way you responded or reacted, or your willingness to have found an alternate approach.

CARD NO. 2

The Self Portrait position offers a look at inner strengths, hindrances, interests, experience, or self awareness that may affect results, your romantic status, or that may stem from your prior history.

The Seven of Chalices in this position suggests that you may have come to a place in your life where you are asking yourself what it is you really want out of your life or relationships. Something has caused you to reflect on where you have been headed, and whether or not it really has meaning or value for you. It could be that you are realizing that your dreams are right at your fingertips and are yours for the taking once you can identify then claim what it is you really want. Choices abound, and may, at times cause you to feel overwhelmed by your options. Temptation may be around every corner, and you may feel enthusiasm to take on every challenge or every cause, but you are being reminded that these life choices have been yours for the claiming at all times. There is no need to rush. Relax, get yourself grounded, and think carefully about where you want to place your focus and energy, for what you Will can be yours.

CARD NO.3

The Where Am I Now? position reveals possible developments, situations, difficulties, or challenges that you may be encountering in your relationship or love life, along with practical suggestions for getting the most out of this current phase or experience.

The Strength (reversed) in this position suggests that issues with self-respect, control, anxiety or an inability to accept yourself could cause you to be inflexible or impatient with others. You may resort to force, manipulation, threats, nagging or impulsive confrontations. But if you could bite your tongue for a moment, you might be able to see the big picture or be receptive to a solution.

---let's just say it's quite real

Happiness in Me

Wow! I couldn't erase the smile on my damn cute face (lolz..) because of the result I obtained from uploading the video I previously posted here....After 13 hours, almost 30 person already viewed my video..It makes me wanna cry and please give me a bunch of blankets before I do..haha...For many, It's just a small number and compare to other videos, mine is not that good and is not worth watching however Im thankful to those who appreciated it (from the very bottom of my cold heart)...Idolized or Despised, either way it was recognized...

Because of this, I will now continue making PROJECT JINX NO. 3! the MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY- Tae Kyung and Mi Nam/Nyu version...Ill be looking forward for more viewers....again,,thank you!

Expect for more vidzzz! ciao!

What Hurts The Most- Tae Kyung and Mi Nam/Nyu

oOooolala..this is my second video..this is not supposed to be my second vid actually....hmmm..I was just inspired to create another video despite of my busy sched....so far no one's viewing it aside from me and i will not expect a thousand viewers...All i want to do is to do something that makes me happy..that's good enough for me...anyway, expect for more vidzzzz....ill continue doing my MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY YOURE BEAUTIFUL project..wahahahahaha....LOL...

Stuff Toy with the song Invisible (Taylor Swift)

oh!this is the video Im referring to in my previous post...Its in Filipino so its kinda exclusive for those who can understand and speak Filipino....as of now, Im the only one who watches it...haha

Stuff Toy-"Invisible" by Taylor Swift

hi there! (though no one's reading this aside from me...still wanna greet...=))

hmmm...i'm thinking about what to write today.There are too many thoughts inside my mind and I find it hard to process those crazy thoughts but then I chose to write a happy story for this hour...only for this hour..haha...it's called as PROJECT JINX...

PROJECT JINX is my project.haha...whatta short description???!!Seriously, I want it to become the label or title of all the stories concerning my hobbies (exclude watching movies please...). Last week, I started to make my own video. Its not a "grandiose" video. Actually, its just a video message dedicated to no one in particular....but i do admit that that video contains the words, which eventually became a sentence and then a paragraph that described whatz up with me during the video making. I decided to dedicate my free time in making those videos to bring happiness and if possible, contentment in my life.

I cannot say I'm okay now. Before, I thought...if I dare say I'm okay, everything would be okay as well but then I was wrong. Hmmm,,let's just put it this way. I chose to move on and save the other drops of tears from falling but it didn't mean that I stopped caring. I still care but then I knew where to place myself. It's loud and clear. Clear enough for a slow learner like me to understand. =)

Anyway, please watch out for my next video. I'm working on two projects now. The first one is the "Letter to Peter" and the other one is the "Miss You Like Crazy-Tae Kyung and Mi Nam/Nyu version".

Goodbye by Jang Geun Suk

You're Beautiful OST Lyrics

What should I do? I am just watching you
I can’t even say a short farewell
You hold on to my cold hands
But now I have to send you away
What should I do? You are going far away
My heart is filling with tears
Even though I try my best to hide it, I can’t
This heart I couldn’t catch, what should I do?
Don’t forget the memories we loved
Even if you find another person that makes you smile
Even the painful farewell, I am glad that it was you
Gathering all my sad tears, good bye
There was nothing I’ve done for you
Sadly, only scars are left
The person who encompassed my changed heart
Now I have to send you away, what should I do?
Don’t forget the memories we loved
Even if you find another person that makes you smile
Even the painful farewell, I am glad that it was you
If the tears fall because it is so painful to endure
Don’t forget the happy memories we shared
Even if you find another person that makes you smile
Even the painful farewell, I am glad that it was you
My love that I can’t reach, now I have to send you away
The only person that can make me laugh is you
Even if love is so deep and the heart hurts so much
Don’t forget the happy memories we shared
Even if you find another person that makes you smile
Even the painful farewell, I am glad that it was you
The thing that I could do with all my sad tears, good bye

LYRICS IN ROMI KOREAN

Eoddeokajyo baraman boneyo
JJareun insa jocha geonnaelsuga eopneyo
Siridorok chagaun nae son jabajujiman
Ijeneun geuman bonaeya hajyo
Eoddeokajyo meoleojyeo ganeyo
Gaseumgadeuk nunmulman chaoneyo
Aesseo gamchwobwado meomchulsuga eopseoyo
Ggeutnae japji motan imameul eoddeokanayo
Saranghaetdeon geu gieogeun noji malayo
Dasi utge hae jul dareun saram mannado
Apeun ibyeolggajido geudaera dahaengijyo
Seulpeun nunmul mowaseo annyeong
Amugeotdo haejunge eopneyo
Motnagedo sangcheoman namgyeotneyo
Byeonaegan mam jocha gamssa anajun saram
Ije bonaeya hal geudaereul eoddeokanayo
Saranghaetdeon geu gieogeun noji malayo
Dasi utge hae jul dareun saram mannado
Apeun ibyeolggajido geudaera dahaengijyo
Sumi meojeulmankeum apawa nunmul heulleodo
Haengbokaetddeon geu gieogeun noji malayo
Dasi utge hae jul dareun saram mannado
Apeun ibyeoggaji geudaera dahaengijyo
Datji mot tal nae saram ijen bonaeya hajyo
Ojik nareul utge hal saran gedaebbuningeol
Sarangi gipeojyeo maeumi apawado
Haengbokaetddeon geu gieogeun noji malayo
Dasi utge hae jul dareunsaram mannado
Apeun ibyeoggaji geudaera dahaengijyo
Seulpeun nunmul mowaseo naega hal su itneun il annyeong

-this song, though korean, touched my soul...I greatly appreciate this song and because of this and other korean songs, I was inspired to compose songs and to study korean as well

Happy Life

hmmm..despite of my busy sched due to my nerve-wrecking and mind-cracking assignment-digesting 30 cases for obligations and contracts, I was able to watch another musical movie entitled Happy Life. As always...a korean movie again...(oh c'mon...just let me be happy even just for a while)...It was a story about rock band which reigned 20 years ago and now they already have their own families. If not because of Sang Wook's death, they would not meet again. the funeral seemed like a reunion. Ki-young the lead guitarist of the band, Active Volcano, wanted desperately to bring the band on stage again. It was refused by his bandmates at first and when they tried to audition for the first time after 20 years, they were all dismayed because it seemed like their magic was gone and they were rejected. Fortunately,in the process, Hyung joon, Sang Wook's young son helped the three seniors make the volcano active again...in the end it was a success

This movie, just like the Baby and Me, tells us the stories of a father to his offspring, a husband to his wife and a son to his father but don't get me wrong, this is not only for boys.

A divorced man...

An unemployed father...

A small earner father

An orphan...

all of those..

watch this movie and realize that MEN DO CRY...

simplySIMPLETON

I thought seeing "it" with another was just fine

I thought watching "it" from a distance was enough

I thought making "it" happy would bring me happiness as well

but

reality came to me again and woke me up from this dream

all the "i thought's" had vanished and sadness welcomed me again...

I am not fine seeing "it" with another creature

It was not enough to watch "it" from a distance

It would not bring me happiness when I made "it" happy

I am not a hypocrite but I do admit that I am a simpleton...

I wish I never knew "it"

I wish I could I forget all about "it"

I wish I could be

with "it"...

oh damn!...so stupid!

My Name in Different Languages

Korean name:

Surname : Korean surname is the
last number in your year of birth .
- 0: Park
- 1: Kim
- 2: Shin
- 3: Choi
- 4: Song
- 5: Kang
- 6: Han
- 7: Lee
- 8: Sung
- 9: Jung

Middle name : is your month of
birth .
- 1: Yong
- 2: Ji
- 3: Je
- 4: Hye
- 5: Dong
- 6: Sang
- 7: Ha
- 8: Hyo
- 9: Soo
- 10: Eun
- 11: Hyun
- 12: Rae

Name : is your date of birth .
- 1: Hwa
- 2: Woo
- 3: Joon
- 4: Hee
- 5: Kyo
- 6: Kyung
- 7: Wook
- 8: Jin
- 9: Jae
- 10: Hoon
- 11: Ra
- 12: Bin
- 13: Sun
- 14: Ri
- 15: Soo
- 16: Rim
- 17: Ah
- 18: Ae
- 19: Neul
- 20: Mun
- 21: In
- 22: Mi
- 23: Ki
- 24: Sang
- 25: Byung
- 26: Seok
- 27: Gun
- 28: Yoo
- 29: Sup
- 30: Won
- 31: Sub

---Hmmm...since i was born in November 16, 1990, my name is...

Chonum PARK HYUN RIM amnida...=)

Chinese name:

Surname (first character)

Yu

Given Name (middle character)

Zhan

profound

Given Name (last character):

ning

repose, serenity, peace; peaceful

---this one is my Chinese name

Wo shi YU ZHAN NING!

Japanese name

Shinki Yu/ Jinki Yu

---this one is my Japanese name

watashi no namae wa Shinki Yu".

Italian Name:

Giacinta Giordano

God chose your birthday for a reason.

Mi chiamo Giacinta Giordano!

---Some day, I will travel the whole world to know my real name in different languages!that's a goal!

Vedic Relationship Guide

· November 16, 1990

· 05:50 AM

· Manila, Philippines

Your Attitude to Relationships as Shaped by Your Birth Star or Nakshatra Swati

Swati is the fifteenth Nakshatra and is ruled by the north node, Rahu. It resides in the sign of Libra and its Western star name is Arcturus.

You have an extreme need to maintain harmony and balance in relationships and you avoid conflict and struggles at all costs. You may also avoid taking a stand because of your fear of confrontation and subsequent failures of relationships. Normally, once you find something in common with someone, you stay close for some time. However, your relationships normally lack depth and can't withstand turbulent phases. Even though your relationships may appear to be working fine from the outside, these may lack passion and intensity. You avoid thinking about the problems in a relationship, as you are always worried about the negative consequences of bringing things up.

You have a long-term perspective on building relationships. You like to plan and move slowly, but steadily. You do not mind making small sacrifices, even if the immediate rewards remain uncertain. However, many times such relationships may not move forward because of the lack of consistent nurturing. It is difficult for you to seize on the rewarding relationships, as your efforts remain scattered across many possible choices.

You love the social interaction and are known for your charm and grace. You are a born diplomat and you know how to go around the difficult issues without getting too involved. You are also known as a peacemaker and have the uncanny ability to help conflicted people see each other points of views and resolve the disputes. You can go to any length to fit into prevalent social and cultural structures. You are a conformist in every manner of social expectation. You will go to any length to maintain such an exterior even at the cost of your instincts and authentic self-expression. Profound social networking is very often the cause of your rapid business success. Your yearn to constantly improve your financial status at all costs, which can cause the deterioration of beautiful relationships in the process.

Once you are in a relationship, you make an immense efforts to please. You believe in going with the flow and are very polite in expressing your contradictory views. It is very rare for you to have confrontation, so your relationships move ahead slowly, over time. You have an urge to learn and to create value for those you are in relationship with. Normally, you are quite happy to see those you care for do well, and receive the rewards they deserve.

However, you need to be aware of the dangers of indulging in worthless and self-destructive relationships. You can learn to manipulate or get manipulated in your urge for reckless materialistic growth. You need to look for the people whose presence can help you foster and grow your talents. You should also work on cultivating a higher self-esteem and creating a stronger sense of identity.

---maybe, it's right...im slow,,,"SLOWLY BUT SURELY" is not applicable in my style...im just plainly SLOW...nothing's next...ha-ha.I still believe in true love...eeeewww its kinda corny and very old fashioned but yes i admit...i still believe in it but at the same time, i believe that it's not for me. he-he,,,

---oh m'n..let's just stop talking about true love,,,it feels awkward...

DOREMIFASOLASIDO

wow...this time i watched DOREMIFASOLASIDO...well, it was an old korean film...not so old..it just flooded the cinemas in 2008 if I am not mistaken,,,The story is overly dramatic....i shed too much tears because of this movie. A story of love, friendship and rivalry. It was so painful to watch what happened in Shin Eun Gyu's life after his girl decided to break up with him. He tried to accept it but it was just too hard for him to bear. After a goodbye concert, he met an accident and eventually loss his understanding. He acted like a child. Even if it was already late, Im glad Hee Woon finally set Joon Won free...In the end, Eun Gyu became a normal being again...

"i can only wait for you

i couldn't say anything..."

--totally this film showed us the pain of letting someone go even how much we wanted to be by his or her side...how to be a true friend even if being one means sacrificing your own happiness...

I used to like some one in my life. The feeling was mutual but then three of my friends liked him as well. One shared to me her tears. The other one confessed to me how special that man was and the last one, was someone who treated me as her best friend. I could not afford to break the hearts of these people who made me feel important so I acted like I am mad at him. Too nice, im good at acting so he easily believed in it. The day he left after a year...I did not even had the courage to smile at him again. I did not think its proper. Wanna know if I regret it...???no...ITS FOR MY FRIENDS' SAKE.

Baby and Me

Well, I just watched Baby and Me starring my ultimate korean crush, Jang Geun Suk as Han Joon Su and a cute little creature...a baby...Moon Mason as Wooh Ram. The story was all about an 18 year old boy who suddenly became a fathEr. Someone put baby wooh ram to his food kart while he was in the grocery. Before, he was a trouble maker. He even smoked inside their campus but when he became a father to wooh ram all by himself...i mean no one helped him aside from a girl who had a crush on him...he learned how to be independent and be responsible for his own life for the baby's sake. He encountered a lot of sufferings that were commonly experienced by a young father who knew nothing about being a dad. He attempted to abandon the baby but the calling was to strong for him to resist so he failed.He was suspended in his school for bringing the baby with him. He worked as a waiter in a bar, he distributed brochures along the night street of Seoul and steal a drank man's wallet. Wow..quite disastrous..isn't it? but he was able to overcome all of this and eventually became a FATHER to Wooh ram.

Hmm...I realized that while being a mom is hard, being a father is a little chaotic. When a mom is crying because her baby is sick, the father should find a way to help his baby. When a mom is giving birth to her child, the father should stand nervously and helplessly wait at the corner. When the lives of the baby and the mother are in the brink of death, the decision of who must stay lies in the hand of the father. When a mother cannot give money to her child, the father should find a job to support financially the family.

A mother who's in pain can cry in public and it's not wrong.

A mother who lost her child can mock the father and it's not forbidden.

but a father...he can't

..not because it is forbidden but because,,,the public sees a father as a strong being who shall not cry whenever problems get on his way. Whether it is because of his pride or not, he shall not cry...

Jang Geun Suk, in this movie, is not an ideal father at first but if i am to choose a father for my...maybe...future offspring...I will gladly choose a father who's so imperfect like the role he played but so loving as he is...

..."Young or old. Fathers have always been the same"

thanks to this movie!

JiaNmeetsGian

Gian: Gumaganda ka ngayon jian ah

Jian:wala kang pakelam

Gian: Bakit ba ang sungit mo?

Jian:wala kang pakelam

Gian: Ikaw na nga ang pinupuri, ikaw pa mataray!

Jian: wala kang pakelam

Gian: Ano bang problema mo?

Jian: WALA KA KASING PAKELAM!!!

---minsan kunteng pakiramdam aman dyan..masyado kang manhid...kailangan ba lahat ineexplain? kailangan ba lagi kang pansinin at magpacute sayo para malaman mong mahalaga ka at kahit walang katuturan sinasabi mo, pinahahalagahan ko pa rin yun...kahit corny ka at para akong kumakain ng nilagang mais sa agahan, inihaw na mais sa tanghalian, mais con yelo sa merienda, cornic sa hapunan at CORNED BEEF sa midnight snack, napapangiti pa rin ako sa joke mong baliw lang ang natatawa...siguro nga baliw ako,,,corny ka naman...kinikilabutan ako sa tuwing maaalala ko ang kakornihan mo...kung paanong sa isang ngiti mo nahulog ang puso ko, sa isang tingin mo kinilig to the bones ako...at sa isang iglap...nasaktan ako...

---corny na rin ako ngayon at sa...TUWING MAALALA KONG NAGKAGUSTO KO SAYO...pakshOooot...NATATAWA NA LANG AKO...

YoU'rE BeAutifUL

The love of my life has gone

Too bad I can’t find it anymore

Too bad I can no longer be with it

It has vanished long before I realized its worth

The memories are full of pain

Thunder, lightning, rain flooded my heart all at once

Each time I see iit from afar

Something pinches my heart

The love of my life has gone

I can’t hold onto him

His far away and I feel like I’m a cast away

I sometimes wonder

Did I let him go?

Or He did?

Or...simply we did not know each other

The love of my life has gone

But the memories are still in here

Being here watching you from a distance

Is like waiting for a star to fall down

The love of my life has gone

I hate this feeling

I should have run from the beginning

I should have ignored the calling

But what can I do?

I can’t stop it and if I did...I’ll die

The love of my life has gone

I don’t know when I can have him

I am not sure if I have to continue enduring the pain

Or simply accept the fact that he’s not for me...

-I was inspired by You’re Beautiful...Somehow I can relate myself to it...A star...the brightest star and the frustrated star. It seems like I was born to watch that star and let that star be in its place because that’s where it belongs. If I try to reach for it, I have to search the whole galaxy and if I try to hold it I’ll just be hurt over and over again. My favourite star, please twinkle more...don’t lose your light...the dark road I am taking...please help me with it...please never ever conceal yourself...I will not bother you, that’s a promise but please stay where you are...don’t let me lose that bit of happiness that’s left in my heart

Today is a painful day. I wish the water could wash away the pain of my heart just like the way it washes away the dirt of my body. I wish it’s easy to forget. I wish it’s possible to be numb...because right now, something within me kills me. Am I destined to cry all my life? When can I be happy?

I could no longer distinguish which is more painful...Is’t the pain of letting it go or the pain of keeping it here in my stubborn heart?

PAIN---I thought I could just back out once I realized it’s hurting but then now I realized, there’s no way I could escape from the fangs of suffering.

LOVE---I don’t want to believe in it. I tried to deceive myself but each time I see it, I could not control myself. It seems like my blood goes up to my head. My heart beats fast. My mind goes blank. Everything’s unexplainable.

...I'M BROKEN...again