Star of the Universe

Source: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Universe%27s_Star

Marry the person whom you can’t live without.

Those words have been ringing in my head since I read it from someone’s social media post. All this time, I believe that one should marry because that basically makes partners happy. I guess this is not much different from the idea of marrying the person who you wish to be with until death arrives. It just became even more romantic.

Woo Joo was a well-known performer in Korea but recently his fan base had decreased. His colleagues believed that he should review his compositions or that he should try going out with girls. Meanwhile, there's a grim reaper and a ghost following him around. The girl couldn’t remember her past but she believed she was saved by Woo Joo so she dedicated her “life” to protecting Woo Joo. However, his boss found out that she’s been meddling with humans. He decided to terminate her from her service but offered her with another chance to live. The catch was she’s not supposed to fulfill her seven wishes or else she’ll die before him. She still accepted the offer and came back to life. She followed him around and saved him from the disasters that befell him. She was mistaken for a stalker at first but later on Woo Joo allowed him to stay by his side. He fell in love with her and consequently her wishes had been fulfilled. One night, she discovered that her name was Ha Na and the man who accidentally killed her was the same man who helped her when she lived again. She couldn’t forgive him at first but soon she did.

The press found out that Hana and Woo Joo were dating. He lost a number of his fans again and his concert was also canceled. Hana set up another concert to her old home and this was attended by his fans. He performed on stage and sang with his fans. While he’s performing, one fan tried to stab Hana but Woo Joo was stabbed instead. He was supposed to die but Hana begged one of the grim reapers to save him and take her instead. In a dramatic and truth-revealing scene, the higher grim reaper agreed with her conditions. Woo Joo lived but Hana will eventually die.

After seven years, while her family was playing together. She heard the sound of the ambulance. She and Woo Joo knew that it was time for her to leave. She left with no regrets.

How many ghosts were able to get another chance to live again? I don’t know. If I do, I would have been an expert. I can’t stop crying after watching this short series. It’s supposed to be a happy ending but it’s still tragic for me. How can love be so great but too late?

Who suffers more? Is’t the one left behind or the one who needed to leave? Which is more frightening, to stay alive but left behind by the one you love or to die for the one you love?

Love has many forms. I hope that no matter how scary it is to love, we still choose to do it. May we all love and be loved back.

Also published in my wordpress account.

My ID is Gangnam Beauty

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Gangnam Beauty is a term for girls who had surgeries done on their faces. In Filipino term, “Salamat po, Doc” (Thanks Doc). Kang Mi Rae had an ugly face so life was never easy for her. She used to believe that if only she’s thin enough, she would have been pretty. However, that wasn’t the case. When she confessed her feelings to her first crush, she got rejected and was even called an orc. Since then, her low self-esteem got the best of her. She even tried to kill herself but thankfully someone found her and saved her.

Before entering college, she decided to go under the knife. She became pretty and eventually the prettiest in her school department. But no matter how much she tried to live a new life, old people come in. One of them is Do Kyung Seok who was the most popular guy in their middle school.  It wasn’t clear at first why he was nice to her. Truthfully, if a hot guy comes to me and be friendly I would certainly think he needs something or that he would use me. It wasn’t the case. He recognized her, protected her and love her…unconditionally. Quite romantic eh? He’s a guy who care about nobody and only talks to very few people. He’s good looking, smart, sporty, honest and everything a girl would love to be with but he chose a Gangnam beauty. He chose a girl who was outside her league. Not beautiful from birth, not from a rich family. He chose a girl whom he knew was physically ugly and unacceptable to others.

We always discreetly calculate how beautiful one’s face is. We label people. We hate the people who had surgeries because we think they’re fake but have we ever considered what they’ve gone through because of their looks?

I remember a show in Thailand where they help people get a total make-over. One of the participants was a guy who had always been mocked and played with by other people until he found a translady who accepted him for who he was. He became a prince charming and I remember how he said that his face may have changed but his heart didn’t.

People go through tragedies and hardships every day. It may not be always about their looks but maybe in a society where looks matter more than attitude, 70% of our pain is brought by “not being beautiful enough”. I wish there’s a way to change that but we live in a cruel world. Looks is about everything. Both boys and girls look for acceptable looks as their partners. For people without money like me, I can only live as ugly and wait for someone like Do Kyung Seok.

I hope everyone who had undergone facial surgeries would have a happy life. After all, everyone deserves to be happy.



PS: Cha Eun Woo has the sweetest smile. #fangirl

Kita Kita

Watching Kita Kita is very memorable for me. It was my first time to watch a movie in a cinema all alone. It was a bit weird because the clerk asked me when I was about to enter the movie house, "Magisa lang po?" and when I was inside, I was surrounded by lovers and cliques. It felt like I was the only one who bravely watched a romantic movie without a date. Oh I guess, it's one of the first's that is worth trying.

Anyway, I'm here to provide my thoughts on the movie and I'll do it the way Tonyo and Baby Dragonfly summarized their story.

10. It's ok to be alone. I wish I could watch it with someone special but nahh... I'm better off alone.

9. It's a great movie. I thought I was going to laugh the whole time but I ended up crying.

8. It's ok to cry inside the cinema. Come on people, lights are off!

7. Stress causes blindness. I am "stressedly" in love with you. That must be why I blindly followed you. Char!

6. Height doesn't matter. Feelings do.

5. Japan is beautiful. I have to go there someday.

4. Open the basket. I have to play it with my crush!

3. Aishiyu is good for the body but seenzoning is bad for someone else's heart. Get what I mean? Watch it.

2. No matter how nice you are, someone's meant to betray you.

1. I REMEMBER EVERYTHING.


More? Let's do a more serious count down and I'll apply it to my life.

10 - beses at higit pa na paulit ulit kong sinabi sa sarili kong kakalimutan kita pero ten-genang yan, paulit ulit pa rin akong bumabalik sayo.

9 - kaarawan ni ate. Nagoffer ka na bibilhan mo sya ng cake dahil tinulugan ka nya pero samantalang nung birthday ko, ni wala ka man lang magawa para sakin.

8 - birthday mo. Lagi akong may naiisip na pang surprise kasi gusto ko maging masaya ka. Hindi ko nga lang matuloy dahil di naman tayo.

7 - August. Nagsimula ako sa bagong work kasama ka at ayun nakita kita at pinagpalit mo na ko sa iba.

6 - numero ng tropa natin.

5 - na lang tayo ngayon.

4 - pm out mo at ako naman 3:30. Araw araw kitang hinihintay kasi gusto kitang kasabay o sadyang maliligaw lang ako pag hindi.

3 - beses kong hiniling na manatili ka dahil kailangan ko ng kausap. Tatlo at higit pa mo rin ako iniwan.

2 - beses kitang tinanong kung ayus pa ba na manatili ako sa iba. Sa dalawang magkaibang panahon, parehong tanong, nagkaiba ang iyong sagot. Di ko na alam ang totoo.

1 - ikaw ang una at nagiisang pinagkatangahan ko ng ganito at aminin ko man o hindi, sayo ko pinaka nasaktan.


Ngayong araw na to, masama ang pakiramdam ko. Nasulat ko to at di ko alam kung pagsisihan ko ba sa susunod na araw. Sakaling mabasa mo to, sana di mo sabihing "madrama" ako. Sa totoo lang ayoko magpaliwanag. Napapagod na rin akong sundan ka. Natatakot ako na mawala yung "ako" dahil lang pinipilit ko yung "tayo". Nalilito ko. Ayoko sa nararamdaman ko. Wala naman tong silbi diba? Mali to. Wag ka magalala, di ako umiiyak ngayon. Nagiisip lang ako ng way para makalimutan na kita. We don't deserve each other. I will never be your baby dragonfly kahit pa willing ako maging puso o saging sa buhay mo.

Adulting 101

I’m going through something that is difficult to comprehend. If I’m younger then people might just call it puberty. I’m a late bloomer so it’s possible. I’m 26, so maybe let’s just call it adulting or let’s use the millennial’s term, midlife crisis. 

I’m in the age where most people already knew what they wanted in their lives or who they wanted to be part of it but sadly, I’m one out of those human beings who opted to just exist and let time or whatever factor take away the happiness that was meant for me. I wish I’m good in Mathematics so I could just use algorithms or maybe an algebraic expression to solve my own issues. Sadly, I’m that one person who has always been an average. I was never a good daughter, lovely sister, exemplary student, exceptional employee, great friend and perfect partner. I never really fitted in. There were times when I just wanted to kill myself or get drowned in passiveness. I wonder why did I even allow, or continuously allowing, myself to reach this age.

Maybe it’s because of the people who encouraged me to be a better version of myself. Finally, someone came who believed in me but it was too late for me to realize that it was all a bluff. That you were fake. That everything I thought we had was superficial. 

You left me. I asked you to stay but still you walked away. I felt betrayed. I tried to follow you but I was scared. I’m scared that if I ever did follow you, I would just continue being my pathetic self and I would never be capable of moving on.

I wish I could do something about my feelings. I wish I could let you go. I wish I could stop being selfish. I wish I could stop screwing up my life just for you. I wish you could see beyond my smile, the ridiculous laughter or the feigned "superiority". 

But wishes don't always come true

...and I will never have you.

Naruto: The Last Chapter

It was 15 long years of dramatic and action filled journey and truth be told I was one of those people who wish for this to end. I remember I was just a first year high school when I first met you back in 2003. It wasn’t love at first sight but maybe love in a time of crisis.

Back then, our television was broken so I spent the whole summer thinking about you and how will it all end. Will it end with love, agony or more action? I never thought it would end in a very futuristic way.

Naruto became the seventh Hokage (is that called shichikage?). He married Hinata and they had two children namely Bolt (who resembles Naruto) and Himawari (who resembles Hinata).

Sasuke had a world tour for his redemption and eventually went back to Konoha and married Sakura (Wahhhhh!!!!! I love you Sasuke-kun). Their daughter’s name is Salad who didn’t just get her father’s looks but seems his coldness as well.

Shikamaru married Temari and oh yeah! I love them both. Unexpectedly, Ino married Sai. Choji tied the knot with Karui. Gaara became nerdy? Hehe

Everyone became happy and moved on from the past circumstances. I did not though. I still love Minato and Neji that it pains me to see them not being part of the “happy ending” but of course I couldn’t decide for its ending because if I can, I’ll just kill Kankouro or maybe Konohamaru? Hehe. Sorry Konohamaru fans, I simply love Neji and Minato.

All’s well that end ends well. I will always love you guys and Master Masashi Kishimoto, thank you for the wonderful anime ride. I will always treasure my love for Sasuke and my respect towards you. This manga will stay in my heart and surely, others feel the same. I know I’m being emotional here and all but I just feel like I met a friend and I lived in Konoha for a few years and now I need to leave it. In the near future when it’s possible to take a step in Konoha village, I shall meet you again Naruto and the gang (of course I’ll look for Sasuke first! Hehe). For now, let’s have “good” bye.

Matane minna!

My Teen Romantic Comedy is Wrong as Expected/ Yahari Ore no Seishun Rabu Kome wa Machigatteiru

My Teen Romantic Comedy SNAFU or My Teen Romantic Comedy SNAFU (やはり俺の青春ラブコメはまちがっている。 Yahari Ore no Seishun Rabu Kome wa Machigatteiru, lit. "My youth romantic comedy is wrong as I expected."), also known in the short forms Hamachi (はまち?) and OreGairu (俺ガイル?).

Ahahaha. I kept on laughing when I watched this anime. Why? Because I love his twisted way of thinking. Hachiman is an anti-social creature with a remarkable talent in influencing people with his pessimistic but realistic opinions. He thinks literally, out of the box and with his crude personality, he answers question in science with words like, “Animals generally form groups. Carnivores have a hierarchy, and those that don’t manage to get to the top of the food chain will live a life of constant stress. Herbivores have their own problems, like being forced to abandon their own survive enemy attacks. As you can see, being in a group brings no advantages to the individual. Thus, I choose to be the bear, a beast that refuses to form groups with others. It’s an animal of isolation that’s not at all worried about its solitary lifestyle. Let’s not forget that bears get to hibernate as well. Oh, what a wonderful existence. If I’m ever reincarnated, I most certainly would like to be reborn as a bear.” One day he was brought by his guidance counselor to a room and introduced him to outlandishly gifted woman named Yukino Yukinoshita. Together, they formed the service club which intends to help others. Their first client Yui Yuigahama became part of their club as well. They got along well in a sense but circumstances suddenly hindered them from becoming closer to one another.

On the first day of high school, Hachiman had an accident while trying to save Yui’s dog. He wasn’t able to attend school for three weeks. Yui thought that if such did not happen, things could have been different for Hachiman. He might have been a “better” person. Hachiman, on the other hand, thinks that Yui’s feelings for him are purely out of guilt. Thus, he indirectly rejected her. He also distanced himself from Yukino when he found out that the car which rammed into him belongs to her.  In the end, they managed to settle their misunderstanding.





His point of view is plausible but it lacks emotion. Not for others but for himself. He say things that hurt others but unknown to others, he also bears the pain of reality. He shoulders the anger of others while making them do what needs to be done. His classmates thought he’s evil. For me, he’s a man who clenches his fist and accepts that somebody needs to be inhuman to make the others human. Am I getting anywhere here?

By the way, I'm still reading the light novel version so I might post again about this ;)