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hi there! i don't feel like discussing happy things right now...my mind is busted,,yeah, that's my term....im just here to share a common love story coz i have these lines that i wanna...well...type...

Once upon a time, there was an avid fan named Jian of this super hot actor, Gian. She dreamed about him and it felt like love so she tried hard to be with that man and so it happened. She became one of the staffs of Gian. Seeing him and watching him from a distance, wow..! that's heaven! And then one time, they were stranded due to heavy rain. That was the very first time they were able to communicate and had a little bonding. It was a very happy moment for Jian...but after that one whole night, he left...without even saying goodbye....Jian tried to chase him in the airport. She cried so hard while watching him saying goodbye to their workmates and then he noticed her. She wiped her tears and left.

After two years he came back and they met again. She's a different person now and he...same old same new...still he's careless about her. She acted as if she didn't see him and one time she over heard Gian's conversation with another man. Gian said negative things about her like she was a lesbian and there's no possibility for them to be together. It was pain. She was about to cry when Gian saw her. He chase him.

"Yun mga narinig mo, wala lang yun. I do not intend to insult you"

"Wala lang pala yun eh bakit ka nagpapaliwanag?"

"DAhil gusto ko."

"Bakit gusto mo?"

"Kasi...hindi ko alam..."

"Yan ang mahirap sa'yo...wala kang alam!"

"Bakit ikaw...ano bang alam mo at ganyan ka magsalita?!"

"Ako? Alam kong ayaw mo sa'ken...pero bakit kailangan ko pa marinig yun. Sabagay di mo naman sadya iparinig...kasalanan ko dahil narinig ko!"

"Oh yes...I hate you,,I really do...at naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil nagmahal ako ng tomboy na kagaya MO!!!"

silence

"oh bakit nanahimik ka? Eh di ba totoo naman? you are a LESBIAN!"

"...ganyan ka ba magsabi ng 'i love you', masakit?"

she left.

After several days, they met again.

"Im sorry."

"ok lang..."

silence

"Alam mo...ang totoo di ko alam kung ano bang dapat ko maramdaman nung dumating ka. Dapat ba ko magtatalon sa tuwa dahil sa wakas bumalik ka na ule o dapat ba ko malungkot dahil andyan ka nanaman at masasaktan nanaman ako. Malungkot aku habang andyan ka pero miserable aku nung umalis ka. At nung sinabi mong minahal mo ko, mas lalong gumulo utak ko. Mahal mo ko pero may PERO???Sana di mo na lang sinabi...mas masakit kasi noon nung iniisip ko na walang pag asa na mahalin mo ko eh kaysa ngayon na sinabi mong minahal mo nga ko pero galit ka sa sarili mo dahil dun..."

"H'wag ka umalis...Di ko na kaya..."

"Gian, tama na. Siguro magkita na lang uli tayo kapag maayos na ang lahat..."

They met agin after five years and everything became fine. HAPPY ENDING!

Wala Lang

Hindi ko alam ang gusto ko idiscuss ngayon...kung ano ang gusto ko sabihin o ishare sa madlang pips...Siguro maya maya,,,alam ko na,,,

eto na..

nakakatuwang isipin na totoong may Diyos at nangungusap sya sa'ten. May mga bagay na pinipigilan Niya ko gawin pero dahil matigas ang ulo ko, hindi ko yun palaging nasusunod...today muling gumawa ng paraan si Lord para iremind me tungkol sa mga bagay na para bang nalilimutan ko na...

One month na kong unemployed and I have attended several interviews already however i always fail and honestly, naiinis ako and dumadating ako palagi sa point na it feels like i find God very annoying. And i hate myself for having such a terrible feeling...Napaka selfish ko,,,napaka tanga ko...nalimutan ko na never gumawa si Lord ng something na ikasisira naten. So i typed here the things God made me realize today with the help of my friend Loid.

1. God is a perfect God. Oh yes! He is, at dahil perfect Siya, He doens't want us to be imperfect. May mga bagay na perfectly fit for us and He, as God, prepares that thing for us. Ayaw Niya ng basta meron lang...ang gusto Niya..THE BEST!

2. Do not wait, SEEK! H'wag tayong maging parang si Juan Tamad lang. H'wag tayo magabang ng grasya. Wala yung paa para lumapit sa'ten at wala yung kamay para hilahin tayo palapit sa kanya. If we want results, we have to act. Ang magsasaka ba may maaani kung di naman siya nagtanim?

3. Prayers are powerful so be careful. Hiniling mo to, hiniling mo yan...lahat na sige iyo na...anak ka ng Diyos eh! pero pag makuha mo na at magdulot ng something negative in your life, sisihin mo si God eh kung di ka isa't kalahating buang, ikaw ang humiling nun, pinagbigyan ka lang dahil mukang halimaw yang muka mo pag di mo nakuha gusto mo. tsk tsk

4. Minsan nakukuha mo ang isang bagay dahil God allowed you to have it. Minsan naman nakukuha mo yun kasi God really wants you to have it.

my friend, kung may bagay man na hindi binigay si Lord sa'ten, sana maisip naten na di talaga yun para sa'ten..that it would be so much better if we would just let God take charge. I believe that God talks to me through my friends. Nagpapasalamat ako dahil hindi man ganun kabait, katino, kastudious or kabonnga mga kaibigan ko, tinulungan nila ko mapalapit at mas makilala ang Diyos na dati minumura ko lang. Ang totoo pag may problema ka, mahirap maniwala..totoo yan. Naranasan ko na rin yan at sa t'wing masasaktan tayo mas lalong mahirap magtiwala pero sa Kanya pa rin eh...Kay Lord pa rin tayo p'wede tumakbo kasi Siya yung hindi nagtataboy sa mga taong gustong mapalapit sa Kanya. Yung arms Niya, kayang yakapin ang lahat ng taong nais rin yumakap sa Kanya. Siya lang yun eh.

Kapag may problema ko o mga bagay na hindi ko kayang sabihin sa iba, I talk to God. Sa Kanya ko umiiyak. Minsan kasi parang alone ako o kahit hindi, i just wanna be on my own pero di ko kaya eh...I run to Him.

Hindi tengang kawali ang Diyos. Naririnig Niya tayo. Magtiwala tayo.