Untitled

hi there! i don't feel like discussing happy things right now...my mind is busted,,yeah, that's my term....im just here to share a common love story coz i have these lines that i wanna...well...type...

Once upon a time, there was an avid fan named Jian of this super hot actor, Gian. She dreamed about him and it felt like love so she tried hard to be with that man and so it happened. She became one of the staffs of Gian. Seeing him and watching him from a distance, wow..! that's heaven! And then one time, they were stranded due to heavy rain. That was the very first time they were able to communicate and had a little bonding. It was a very happy moment for Jian...but after that one whole night, he left...without even saying goodbye....Jian tried to chase him in the airport. She cried so hard while watching him saying goodbye to their workmates and then he noticed her. She wiped her tears and left.

After two years he came back and they met again. She's a different person now and he...same old same new...still he's careless about her. She acted as if she didn't see him and one time she over heard Gian's conversation with another man. Gian said negative things about her like she was a lesbian and there's no possibility for them to be together. It was pain. She was about to cry when Gian saw her. He chase him.

"Yun mga narinig mo, wala lang yun. I do not intend to insult you"

"Wala lang pala yun eh bakit ka nagpapaliwanag?"

"DAhil gusto ko."

"Bakit gusto mo?"

"Kasi...hindi ko alam..."

"Yan ang mahirap sa'yo...wala kang alam!"

"Bakit ikaw...ano bang alam mo at ganyan ka magsalita?!"

"Ako? Alam kong ayaw mo sa'ken...pero bakit kailangan ko pa marinig yun. Sabagay di mo naman sadya iparinig...kasalanan ko dahil narinig ko!"

"Oh yes...I hate you,,I really do...at naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil nagmahal ako ng tomboy na kagaya MO!!!"

silence

"oh bakit nanahimik ka? Eh di ba totoo naman? you are a LESBIAN!"

"...ganyan ka ba magsabi ng 'i love you', masakit?"

she left.

After several days, they met again.

"Im sorry."

"ok lang..."

silence

"Alam mo...ang totoo di ko alam kung ano bang dapat ko maramdaman nung dumating ka. Dapat ba ko magtatalon sa tuwa dahil sa wakas bumalik ka na ule o dapat ba ko malungkot dahil andyan ka nanaman at masasaktan nanaman ako. Malungkot aku habang andyan ka pero miserable aku nung umalis ka. At nung sinabi mong minahal mo ko, mas lalong gumulo utak ko. Mahal mo ko pero may PERO???Sana di mo na lang sinabi...mas masakit kasi noon nung iniisip ko na walang pag asa na mahalin mo ko eh kaysa ngayon na sinabi mong minahal mo nga ko pero galit ka sa sarili mo dahil dun..."

"H'wag ka umalis...Di ko na kaya..."

"Gian, tama na. Siguro magkita na lang uli tayo kapag maayos na ang lahat..."

They met agin after five years and everything became fine. HAPPY ENDING!

Killua Zoldick and Haruno Sakura

i feel sad because of my freaking chicken pox that left MARKS on my face...(there are two huge blisters on my nose)....so i tried to focus myself on learning something...hmmmm...how to use the adobe photoshop cs3 extended...this is not the latest version actually but this is what i have in this computer so...that's it!(dunno what to say)

my subject in this artwork is killua and sakura as lovers. hmmm...in a facebook group where i belong, my character name is haruno sakura/hatake kakashi/namikaze minato. My partner is suppossed to be sasuke and i personally like sasuke for sakura but i do not like the sasuke of our group...aside from the fact that he's a child..hmmm..whatever...i just don't feel like playing as his lover so i have decided that i'll just get another character from my favorite anime who happened to be killua zoldick of hunterxhunter. Well, killua is like my childhood crush..haha so if i have to choose between sasuke and killua, i'll definitely choose killua. I really really like his character and of course his attitude. He's a loyal friend...very.

let's start. first i looked for killua's picture and so as sakura's. It's easy but my internet connection is kinda slow so it took me some time.

Killua Zoldick

i already cropped this pic to save some of my precious time

this is for my sakura pic...i have to erase sasuke

Using Adobe Photoshop Cs3 extended, i was able to erase sasuke and the background color. On killua, i have to erase the bird on his hand and then i drag sakura's pic after several resizing of her image on killua's window.

hmmmm...then i have to make the background color disappear but instead of erasing the background, i just used the quick selection tool and then drag it to another window.

this is the background that i'd be using. I did this after combining killua and sakura's picz...it's not good i know but it's better than nothing..hihi

and so they are together now but this time i have to work with the huge space left so after saving this, i opened my microsoft office powerpoint and type their names.

and then that's it. i'm done finally...it took me more than an hour..i think..haha..i'm so slow...

Now i have a sakura plus killua picture, Hooray! this is a dream come true! haha

THE LAST SOUL

this is a story i wrote for my world literature class..enjoy reading.stop sinning!

THE LAST SOUL

Once upon a time there were eight souls gathered around the waiting area of Boss Pete’s office. They say that his office was the examination area and all souls before entering heaven or maybe hell passed this way. For those who fail, they were thrown into the pit of hell and for those who passed they would be given a golden ticket for an airplane going to the most beautiful palace of eternity and for those who were still in a conditional state, they were given a chance to choose between two paths. The long path contains too much hardships and trials. It includes 700 pushups and sit-ups every day in 70 years but when you’re done, you will be able to have a first class ticket from Heaven Airlines while the short path contains fewer struggles. It includes a tricky test. If you answered it correctly, you will be immediately sent to heaven but when you got a wrong answer, you would be beaten by men in red and send to Hell. These things were actually the topic of the eight souls who were waiting for their names to be called. Finally the first one stood up. His crime, he was a pedophile. Boss Pete’s secretary Ross the Rooster called the second one. His crime, he was an assassin who killed for the sake of pleasure. The next one was called, an atheist. The next one was a politician who annihilated a huge clan. Then a murderer who killed out of anger. The next one was a careless man who ran away from the battle field and left his comrades just to save his self. Then the second to the last man was called. The last man had not seen him walk out of the office.

The last one was called.

“Let me check your visa. Hmmm...VISA DENIED!”

“Why? Tell me! What have I done?”

“You glutton. You did nothing but eat, eat and eat so why should I send you to heaven???!”

“What’s wrong with that??? I just want myself to be healthy! Our bodies are our holy temple. We need to take care of it!”

“How dare you say that?! You are a fat ass who died due to high blood! Your heart was covered with fats that made it hard for you to breathe! You do not deserve to be in the kingdom of God.”

“Why not? I just fulfilled God’s desire for us. He wanted us to live abundantly, right? So I did! I ate all the foods I love while I was still alive.”

Boss Pete breathed deeply and said, “I’ll let you take a glance on your former world once again.”

A large LCD screen suddenly appeared before him. He saw people doing fasting, and others praying. Some people share their food with strangers. Some are eating…eating a small portion of bread.

“Now, let me ask you…what did you do on earth within the 32 years of your existence?”

Silence reigned and a different scene was played. It showed an obese man eating luxurious meals in a fancy restaurant with his comrades. They were all laughing together and eating as if there would be no tomorrow for them. When the fat man left the restaurant he ordered another meal and took it out. A little boy approached him and asked for some food but the man acted as if he did not notice the poor little boy but the boy followed the man and asked for his pity and this time the fat man pushed the boy causing him to fell on the ground. Then Boss Pete said, “Intelligent control of the stomach is the gate to all virtues. Restrain the stomach, and you will be able to enter the Eternal Kingdom. But if you indulge your stomach, you will hurl yourself over the precipice of bodily impurity, into the fire of wrath and vehemence, you will coarsen and darken your mind, and in this way you will ruin your powers of attention and self-control, your moderation and vigilance and all other virtues will be washed away.

You’re right. God wants us to live abundantly. In fact, God has blessed us by filling the earth with foods that are appetizing, nutritious, and delightful but you forgot something, we should honor God's creation by enjoying these foods and by eating them in appropriate quantities. God calls us to control our appetites, rather than allowing them to control us.”

Then Boss Pete called out for Len the Hen and asked her to bring the men in red in his office. The men in red held the man’s arms and the man begun to panic.

“Oh please give me a second chance. I am not aware of my sin!”

“It’s too late. There are no second chances at this point. 32 years is more than enough for you to take your chances but sad to say…you neglected those chances. It’s time for you to face the consequences of your action.”

“Wait! One last thing!”

“What?”

“What happened to the man who entered here before me? I haven’t seen him leaving this place…”

“Oh that man, he was given a free ticket courtesy of Heaven Airlines.”

“What???But he was a convicted murderer and rapist???!”

“He repented…”

The man was brought to the underground railway. There he would wait for the fastest train to come and this train does not stop. The man has to run to enable him to ride. He saw the train finally. He ran as fast as he could but because he was too heavy he couldn’t catch up with the speed of the train. Now, all he could do was to walk up to the gates of Hell for if he would not do this, night would come. Legends say that the temperature gets hotter and hotter as night comes and demons are wandering around and play with your pitiful soul.

After a long journey, he saw the gates of Hell. It was open for everyone and as the sinful souls enter, they were given a box. He opened the box. He thought it was a box of delicious foods. Indeed it was. It was the most delicious food in Hell— live rats, toads and snakes. From that they on…he was forced to eat those and if he wouldn’t he would be beaten a thousand times and even how many times he was beaten, he couldn’t die because he’s already dead. When he was tired he imagined what heaven looks like. When he closed his eyes, he saw angels and good souls laughing together and as his thoughts wandered around in this kind of kingdom, he saw a very familiar image and told himself…” That must be the righteous kid I pushed away from me.”

THE END

my BIRTHDAY GIFT

wow! my dad gave me a birthday gift...a GUITAR!..wooohhh...last few months, I'd been encouraged to learn how to play a musical instrument...When I was a little girl, I learned how to play a xylophone and a piano (coz i usually receive musical instruments as a birthday gift) and then when I was in Grade 4, I learned how to play a bamboo flute. This flute was given to me by my father. That time, I was fond of playing My Heart will Go on and Voltes V theme song. After several years, here I am...GUITAR...I couldn't remember how to play the musical instruments i used to play and now I'm back to zero...but my dreams kept me inspired so I would work hard on this. I even downloaded video tutorials from youtube...I hope I could learn this before Christmas so I could sing along with my friends and compose more songs...Right now, I still got no picture of it but maybe I could post here a picture of my precious gift some other time...

ohh! While I was in the c.r, an idea visited my mind. "Series of Fortunate Events and Emotional Hells"...hmmm...this could be a good title for a movie..or a novel or maybe a rock song...I'll think about it...

Miss You Like Crazy- You're Beautiful (behind the LIGHTS)

I'm done with my last video of You're Beautiful...well, I am just trying to move on and control/limit my addiction that's why I made this video. I am so thankful to all those people who watched my previous videos. It inspired me to work on more ideas. Actually, I am planning to make my own short movie and hopefully, my CASTS would help me with such project.

hmmm...right now, i am uploading the MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY- YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL video on youtube and then below is the other video of mylc. I didn't chose it because I think the second video I made is better. Anyway, I wanna share it with you....

Happiness in Me

Wow! I couldn't erase the smile on my damn cute face (lolz..) because of the result I obtained from uploading the video I previously posted here....After 13 hours, almost 30 person already viewed my video..It makes me wanna cry and please give me a bunch of blankets before I do..haha...For many, It's just a small number and compare to other videos, mine is not that good and is not worth watching however Im thankful to those who appreciated it (from the very bottom of my cold heart)...Idolized or Despised, either way it was recognized...

Because of this, I will now continue making PROJECT JINX NO. 3! the MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY- Tae Kyung and Mi Nam/Nyu version...Ill be looking forward for more viewers....again,,thank you!

Expect for more vidzzz! ciao!

Stuff Toy-"Invisible" by Taylor Swift

hi there! (though no one's reading this aside from me...still wanna greet...=))

hmmm...i'm thinking about what to write today.There are too many thoughts inside my mind and I find it hard to process those crazy thoughts but then I chose to write a happy story for this hour...only for this hour..haha...it's called as PROJECT JINX...

PROJECT JINX is my project.haha...whatta short description???!!Seriously, I want it to become the label or title of all the stories concerning my hobbies (exclude watching movies please...). Last week, I started to make my own video. Its not a "grandiose" video. Actually, its just a video message dedicated to no one in particular....but i do admit that that video contains the words, which eventually became a sentence and then a paragraph that described whatz up with me during the video making. I decided to dedicate my free time in making those videos to bring happiness and if possible, contentment in my life.

I cannot say I'm okay now. Before, I thought...if I dare say I'm okay, everything would be okay as well but then I was wrong. Hmmm,,let's just put it this way. I chose to move on and save the other drops of tears from falling but it didn't mean that I stopped caring. I still care but then I knew where to place myself. It's loud and clear. Clear enough for a slow learner like me to understand. =)

Anyway, please watch out for my next video. I'm working on two projects now. The first one is the "Letter to Peter" and the other one is the "Miss You Like Crazy-Tae Kyung and Mi Nam/Nyu version".