Kita Kita

Watching Kita Kita is very memorable for me. It was my first time to watch a movie in a cinema all alone. It was a bit weird because the clerk asked me when I was about to enter the movie house, "Magisa lang po?" and when I was inside, I was surrounded by lovers and cliques. It felt like I was the only one who bravely watched a romantic movie without a date. Oh I guess, it's one of the first's that is worth trying.

Anyway, I'm here to provide my thoughts on the movie and I'll do it the way Tonyo and Baby Dragonfly summarized their story.

10. It's ok to be alone. I wish I could watch it with someone special but nahh... I'm better off alone.

9. It's a great movie. I thought I was going to laugh the whole time but I ended up crying.

8. It's ok to cry inside the cinema. Come on people, lights are off!

7. Stress causes blindness. I am "stressedly" in love with you. That must be why I blindly followed you. Char!

6. Height doesn't matter. Feelings do.

5. Japan is beautiful. I have to go there someday.

4. Open the basket. I have to play it with my crush!

3. Aishiyu is good for the body but seenzoning is bad for someone else's heart. Get what I mean? Watch it.

2. No matter how nice you are, someone's meant to betray you.

1. I REMEMBER EVERYTHING.


More? Let's do a more serious count down and I'll apply it to my life.

10 - beses at higit pa na paulit ulit kong sinabi sa sarili kong kakalimutan kita pero ten-genang yan, paulit ulit pa rin akong bumabalik sayo.

9 - kaarawan ni ate. Nagoffer ka na bibilhan mo sya ng cake dahil tinulugan ka nya pero samantalang nung birthday ko, ni wala ka man lang magawa para sakin.

8 - birthday mo. Lagi akong may naiisip na pang surprise kasi gusto ko maging masaya ka. Hindi ko nga lang matuloy dahil di naman tayo.

7 - August. Nagsimula ako sa bagong work kasama ka at ayun nakita kita at pinagpalit mo na ko sa iba.

6 - numero ng tropa natin.

5 - na lang tayo ngayon.

4 - pm out mo at ako naman 3:30. Araw araw kitang hinihintay kasi gusto kitang kasabay o sadyang maliligaw lang ako pag hindi.

3 - beses kong hiniling na manatili ka dahil kailangan ko ng kausap. Tatlo at higit pa mo rin ako iniwan.

2 - beses kitang tinanong kung ayus pa ba na manatili ako sa iba. Sa dalawang magkaibang panahon, parehong tanong, nagkaiba ang iyong sagot. Di ko na alam ang totoo.

1 - ikaw ang una at nagiisang pinagkatangahan ko ng ganito at aminin ko man o hindi, sayo ko pinaka nasaktan.


Ngayong araw na to, masama ang pakiramdam ko. Nasulat ko to at di ko alam kung pagsisihan ko ba sa susunod na araw. Sakaling mabasa mo to, sana di mo sabihing "madrama" ako. Sa totoo lang ayoko magpaliwanag. Napapagod na rin akong sundan ka. Natatakot ako na mawala yung "ako" dahil lang pinipilit ko yung "tayo". Nalilito ko. Ayoko sa nararamdaman ko. Wala naman tong silbi diba? Mali to. Wag ka magalala, di ako umiiyak ngayon. Nagiisip lang ako ng way para makalimutan na kita. We don't deserve each other. I will never be your baby dragonfly kahit pa willing ako maging puso o saging sa buhay mo.

Adulting 101

I’m going through something that is difficult to comprehend. If I’m younger then people might just call it puberty. I’m a late bloomer so it’s possible. I’m 26, so maybe let’s just call it adulting or let’s use the millennial’s term, midlife crisis. 

I’m in the age where most people already knew what they wanted in their lives or who they wanted to be part of it but sadly, I’m one out of those human beings who opted to just exist and let time or whatever factor take away the happiness that was meant for me. I wish I’m good in Mathematics so I could just use algorithms or maybe an algebraic expression to solve my own issues. Sadly, I’m that one person who has always been an average. I was never a good daughter, lovely sister, exemplary student, exceptional employee, great friend and perfect partner. I never really fitted in. There were times when I just wanted to kill myself or get drowned in passiveness. I wonder why did I even allow, or continuously allowing, myself to reach this age.

Maybe it’s because of the people who encouraged me to be a better version of myself. Finally, someone came who believed in me but it was too late for me to realize that it was all a bluff. That you were fake. That everything I thought we had was superficial. 

You left me. I asked you to stay but still you walked away. I felt betrayed. I tried to follow you but I was scared. I’m scared that if I ever did follow you, I would just continue being my pathetic self and I would never be capable of moving on.

I wish I could do something about my feelings. I wish I could let you go. I wish I could stop being selfish. I wish I could stop screwing up my life just for you. I wish you could see beyond my smile, the ridiculous laughter or the feigned "superiority". 

But wishes don't always come true

...and I will never have you.

Naruto: The Last Chapter

It was 15 long years of dramatic and action filled journey and truth be told I was one of those people who wish for this to end. I remember I was just a first year high school when I first met you back in 2003. It wasn’t love at first sight but maybe love in a time of crisis.

Back then, our television was broken so I spent the whole summer thinking about you and how will it all end. Will it end with love, agony or more action? I never thought it would end in a very futuristic way.

Naruto became the seventh Hokage (is that called shichikage?). He married Hinata and they had two children namely Bolt (who resembles Naruto) and Himawari (who resembles Hinata).

Sasuke had a world tour for his redemption and eventually went back to Konoha and married Sakura (Wahhhhh!!!!! I love you Sasuke-kun). Their daughter’s name is Salad who didn’t just get her father’s looks but seems his coldness as well.

Shikamaru married Temari and oh yeah! I love them both. Unexpectedly, Ino married Sai. Choji tied the knot with Karui. Gaara became nerdy? Hehe

Everyone became happy and moved on from the past circumstances. I did not though. I still love Minato and Neji that it pains me to see them not being part of the “happy ending” but of course I couldn’t decide for its ending because if I can, I’ll just kill Kankouro or maybe Konohamaru? Hehe. Sorry Konohamaru fans, I simply love Neji and Minato.

All’s well that end ends well. I will always love you guys and Master Masashi Kishimoto, thank you for the wonderful anime ride. I will always treasure my love for Sasuke and my respect towards you. This manga will stay in my heart and surely, others feel the same. I know I’m being emotional here and all but I just feel like I met a friend and I lived in Konoha for a few years and now I need to leave it. In the near future when it’s possible to take a step in Konoha village, I shall meet you again Naruto and the gang (of course I’ll look for Sasuke first! Hehe). For now, let’s have “good” bye.

Matane minna!

My Teen Romantic Comedy is Wrong as Expected/ Yahari Ore no Seishun Rabu Kome wa Machigatteiru

My Teen Romantic Comedy SNAFU or My Teen Romantic Comedy SNAFU (やはり俺の青春ラブコメはまちがっている。 Yahari Ore no Seishun Rabu Kome wa Machigatteiru, lit. "My youth romantic comedy is wrong as I expected."), also known in the short forms Hamachi (はまち?) and OreGairu (俺ガイル?).

Ahahaha. I kept on laughing when I watched this anime. Why? Because I love his twisted way of thinking. Hachiman is an anti-social creature with a remarkable talent in influencing people with his pessimistic but realistic opinions. He thinks literally, out of the box and with his crude personality, he answers question in science with words like, “Animals generally form groups. Carnivores have a hierarchy, and those that don’t manage to get to the top of the food chain will live a life of constant stress. Herbivores have their own problems, like being forced to abandon their own survive enemy attacks. As you can see, being in a group brings no advantages to the individual. Thus, I choose to be the bear, a beast that refuses to form groups with others. It’s an animal of isolation that’s not at all worried about its solitary lifestyle. Let’s not forget that bears get to hibernate as well. Oh, what a wonderful existence. If I’m ever reincarnated, I most certainly would like to be reborn as a bear.” One day he was brought by his guidance counselor to a room and introduced him to outlandishly gifted woman named Yukino Yukinoshita. Together, they formed the service club which intends to help others. Their first client Yui Yuigahama became part of their club as well. They got along well in a sense but circumstances suddenly hindered them from becoming closer to one another.

On the first day of high school, Hachiman had an accident while trying to save Yui’s dog. He wasn’t able to attend school for three weeks. Yui thought that if such did not happen, things could have been different for Hachiman. He might have been a “better” person. Hachiman, on the other hand, thinks that Yui’s feelings for him are purely out of guilt. Thus, he indirectly rejected her. He also distanced himself from Yukino when he found out that the car which rammed into him belongs to her.  In the end, they managed to settle their misunderstanding.





His point of view is plausible but it lacks emotion. Not for others but for himself. He say things that hurt others but unknown to others, he also bears the pain of reality. He shoulders the anger of others while making them do what needs to be done. His classmates thought he’s evil. For me, he’s a man who clenches his fist and accepts that somebody needs to be inhuman to make the others human. Am I getting anywhere here?

By the way, I'm still reading the light novel version so I might post again about this ;)