the CRAZY little thing

whoah...i was surprised but what i did yesterday (july 29)...haha

I did a crazy thing...who would have thought that a careless creature like me would go down from the jeepney just to save a man whom i thought had no umbrella when in fact he had! craaaazy...

the story goes like this...

galing kame sa mall and then umuwi na kame. Nung pauwi na kame, sumakay kame sa jeep tapos nung time pa lang na yun madilim na yun sky. Sabi ko 'uulan na..' at sagot naman nya 'oo nga eh, bibilisan ko na lang maglakad'. At ayun nga bumaba na sya..Nung pagbaba nya...nakatingin sya dun sa jeep na kinalalagyan ko at biglang bumuhos ang malakas na ulan.....nagalala ko..tinawagan ko sya at tinanung kung may payong sya...sabi nya stranded daw sya sa ulan..sabi ko wag syang aalis...babalikan ko sya....at ayun ga bumaba ang sira ulong si ako!...naulan! sinalubong ko ang mga jeep..napakalayo na kasi nun narating ng jeep sa binabaan nya...at pagkarating ko..tinawagan ko sya ule pra tanungin kung asan na sya..'andito malapit na sa bahay'

xunga...

wg kcng martir...natatawa na lang aku...hahahaha

kabubung bata...

Untitled

hi there! i don't feel like discussing happy things right now...my mind is busted,,yeah, that's my term....im just here to share a common love story coz i have these lines that i wanna...well...type...

Once upon a time, there was an avid fan named Jian of this super hot actor, Gian. She dreamed about him and it felt like love so she tried hard to be with that man and so it happened. She became one of the staffs of Gian. Seeing him and watching him from a distance, wow..! that's heaven! And then one time, they were stranded due to heavy rain. That was the very first time they were able to communicate and had a little bonding. It was a very happy moment for Jian...but after that one whole night, he left...without even saying goodbye....Jian tried to chase him in the airport. She cried so hard while watching him saying goodbye to their workmates and then he noticed her. She wiped her tears and left.

After two years he came back and they met again. She's a different person now and he...same old same new...still he's careless about her. She acted as if she didn't see him and one time she over heard Gian's conversation with another man. Gian said negative things about her like she was a lesbian and there's no possibility for them to be together. It was pain. She was about to cry when Gian saw her. He chase him.

"Yun mga narinig mo, wala lang yun. I do not intend to insult you"

"Wala lang pala yun eh bakit ka nagpapaliwanag?"

"DAhil gusto ko."

"Bakit gusto mo?"

"Kasi...hindi ko alam..."

"Yan ang mahirap sa'yo...wala kang alam!"

"Bakit ikaw...ano bang alam mo at ganyan ka magsalita?!"

"Ako? Alam kong ayaw mo sa'ken...pero bakit kailangan ko pa marinig yun. Sabagay di mo naman sadya iparinig...kasalanan ko dahil narinig ko!"

"Oh yes...I hate you,,I really do...at naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil nagmahal ako ng tomboy na kagaya MO!!!"

silence

"oh bakit nanahimik ka? Eh di ba totoo naman? you are a LESBIAN!"

"...ganyan ka ba magsabi ng 'i love you', masakit?"

she left.

After several days, they met again.

"Im sorry."

"ok lang..."

silence

"Alam mo...ang totoo di ko alam kung ano bang dapat ko maramdaman nung dumating ka. Dapat ba ko magtatalon sa tuwa dahil sa wakas bumalik ka na ule o dapat ba ko malungkot dahil andyan ka nanaman at masasaktan nanaman ako. Malungkot aku habang andyan ka pero miserable aku nung umalis ka. At nung sinabi mong minahal mo ko, mas lalong gumulo utak ko. Mahal mo ko pero may PERO???Sana di mo na lang sinabi...mas masakit kasi noon nung iniisip ko na walang pag asa na mahalin mo ko eh kaysa ngayon na sinabi mong minahal mo nga ko pero galit ka sa sarili mo dahil dun..."

"H'wag ka umalis...Di ko na kaya..."

"Gian, tama na. Siguro magkita na lang uli tayo kapag maayos na ang lahat..."

They met agin after five years and everything became fine. HAPPY ENDING!

Wala Lang

Hindi ko alam ang gusto ko idiscuss ngayon...kung ano ang gusto ko sabihin o ishare sa madlang pips...Siguro maya maya,,,alam ko na,,,

eto na..

nakakatuwang isipin na totoong may Diyos at nangungusap sya sa'ten. May mga bagay na pinipigilan Niya ko gawin pero dahil matigas ang ulo ko, hindi ko yun palaging nasusunod...today muling gumawa ng paraan si Lord para iremind me tungkol sa mga bagay na para bang nalilimutan ko na...

One month na kong unemployed and I have attended several interviews already however i always fail and honestly, naiinis ako and dumadating ako palagi sa point na it feels like i find God very annoying. And i hate myself for having such a terrible feeling...Napaka selfish ko,,,napaka tanga ko...nalimutan ko na never gumawa si Lord ng something na ikasisira naten. So i typed here the things God made me realize today with the help of my friend Loid.

1. God is a perfect God. Oh yes! He is, at dahil perfect Siya, He doens't want us to be imperfect. May mga bagay na perfectly fit for us and He, as God, prepares that thing for us. Ayaw Niya ng basta meron lang...ang gusto Niya..THE BEST!

2. Do not wait, SEEK! H'wag tayong maging parang si Juan Tamad lang. H'wag tayo magabang ng grasya. Wala yung paa para lumapit sa'ten at wala yung kamay para hilahin tayo palapit sa kanya. If we want results, we have to act. Ang magsasaka ba may maaani kung di naman siya nagtanim?

3. Prayers are powerful so be careful. Hiniling mo to, hiniling mo yan...lahat na sige iyo na...anak ka ng Diyos eh! pero pag makuha mo na at magdulot ng something negative in your life, sisihin mo si God eh kung di ka isa't kalahating buang, ikaw ang humiling nun, pinagbigyan ka lang dahil mukang halimaw yang muka mo pag di mo nakuha gusto mo. tsk tsk

4. Minsan nakukuha mo ang isang bagay dahil God allowed you to have it. Minsan naman nakukuha mo yun kasi God really wants you to have it.

my friend, kung may bagay man na hindi binigay si Lord sa'ten, sana maisip naten na di talaga yun para sa'ten..that it would be so much better if we would just let God take charge. I believe that God talks to me through my friends. Nagpapasalamat ako dahil hindi man ganun kabait, katino, kastudious or kabonnga mga kaibigan ko, tinulungan nila ko mapalapit at mas makilala ang Diyos na dati minumura ko lang. Ang totoo pag may problema ka, mahirap maniwala..totoo yan. Naranasan ko na rin yan at sa t'wing masasaktan tayo mas lalong mahirap magtiwala pero sa Kanya pa rin eh...Kay Lord pa rin tayo p'wede tumakbo kasi Siya yung hindi nagtataboy sa mga taong gustong mapalapit sa Kanya. Yung arms Niya, kayang yakapin ang lahat ng taong nais rin yumakap sa Kanya. Siya lang yun eh.

Kapag may problema ko o mga bagay na hindi ko kayang sabihin sa iba, I talk to God. Sa Kanya ko umiiyak. Minsan kasi parang alone ako o kahit hindi, i just wanna be on my own pero di ko kaya eh...I run to Him.

Hindi tengang kawali ang Diyos. Naririnig Niya tayo. Magtiwala tayo.

Reaksyon Lamang!

May 4, 2011, Wednesday

FUEL CARD

Honestly and with all due respect to the authority...I beg to disagree that these fuel cards would help reduce the problems of drivers. Don’t they think that they do nothing to solve the problem?They are just giving a substitute, not a solution at all! How can a damn card help them for the next few years. It could not even last for a month, come on! Are they fooling the people??? Okay! The intention to help is there but what they’re doing is that they’re probably tolerate and make these poor drivers be dependent on the government.

The solution? First and foremost…Next time, choose a better leader. Do not choose a leader who knows nothing about damn governance. H’wag kasing papogi. Don’t let another “late-reaction-man” to rule over us once again. Okay?

Next, I advised the government to think of a better plan to help the people but first put this saying to their minds…”Don’t give someone a fish, instead teach them how to fish.” H’wag nyong gawing dependent ang tao masyado sa inyo dahil kapag ang tao nagdemand ule, sasabihin niyo abuso.

Lastly, eh kung binabawasan nyo kaya yung mga vehicles sa Pilipinas edi nabawasan din problema niyo?! The demand for gasoline is high but then the supply is not enough as what they’re always saying so we import tanks of gasoline from the international market. Let’s try to create equilibrium. Bawasan ang sasakyan…the demand would be lessen and the supply would be enough.

I know my ideas are quite impossible and unattainable. Many would react ‘harshly’ bout this but I’m just trying to express my opinion. I don’t give a damn to all those people who would criticize my points but before doing so, suggest something possible, attainable and worthy of my praise!

MERCEDITAS GUTIERREZ RESIGNED AS THE OMBUDSMAN, IMPEACHMENT TRIAL THROWN AWAY

Well, while everyone is demanding for Gutierrez’ impeachment trial especially to the Senate On-the-Job-Trainees, I have a different view once again. I think it’s better that they have just thrown away the idea of impeachment since Gutierrez has already resigned from her position. Actually, I am totally against the impeachment trial because for me it is just a waste of budget. Siguro may magtatanong sa’ken ng ganito…”Ayaw mo bang malaman ang katotohanan?” Oh damn! Sinong may ayaw malaman ang totoo? Siguro nga may mga taong walang pakelam sa katotohanan pero walang taong ayaw malaman ang totoo! Bakit? Ano bang katotohan na gusto nila malaman? Na nandaya at nagnakaw sa kaban ng bayan ang isang opisyal ng gobyerno? Utang na loob! Matagal ng isyu yan! Hindi pa ko sinisilang meron na yan eh. Alamin ang katotohanan? Eh isa lang aman ang gusto marinig ng taong bayan…SHE IS GUILTY! SHE ALWAYS HAVE…ALWAYS WILL… and this is what our beloved officials would try to prove. Tanungin ko nga kayo…bakit kailangan pang husgahan ang taong nahusgahan na? Sagutin niyo nga ako! Bakit ko pa gugustuhing makinig sa radio at manood ng tv habang nililitis ang isang taong kriminal na, hindi pa man convicted???

Para san ba kapag guilty nga sya. You’ll imprison her. A fully-airconditioned prison cell (suite???). Why not? She has served the country. Right? And then??? Think about this, impeachment trial, convict her, jail her, and once she gets sick, hospitalized her and once she die, after all those damn nice treatment, the government is to blame…Why not? She wouldn’t be sick if she wasn’t imprisoned…Right? Pasimplehin naten…Ikulong nyo siya, gastos nyo sya. Bakit? May government official na ba na nakulong sa Bilibid? WALA! Kung meron man…nakulong nga ba? Baka nagparty o nakipag friendship lang sa loob…H’wag nateng lokohin ang sarili naten…Yung perang ninakaw niya kung meron man, kulang pa yun panggastos sa kanya pag ikulong siya. Pera? Yun lang ba nasa isip ko? Makatipid ang gobyerno? Why not? Pangarap ko na magastos ng tama ang perang pinagpapaguran ng lahat ng tao. Pangarap ko na makinabang ang bulsa ng bawat mamamayan…Proper governance is like managing a business. Kung hindi mo kayang imanage ang business na to, better resign from your position.

This is Me

A Life without meaning is not life at all.

Every little thing within us functions just for us to remain alive and do our purpose. Every one has a purpose and maybe once your done doing yours, Lord God will give you another purpose in heaven. My physical world is filled with outlandish aims. I have always wanted to be 'different'. I wanted the spot light to be focused on me and it is simply because I want my special someone to see me but the problem is I am not worthy to be seen. Many guys fell for me because they saw my pictures in my social accounts but no one appreciated what's inside of me. They say that I am a funny person. I get that always but for me, I'm just as boring as I am. I have always been a trying hard moron. I preach what's this, what's that though I have not experienced much. I love telling what I want to do in life but I always fail doing those. My insecurities stop me. I love listening to other people's stories and I always pray for that someone who would listen to my stories the way I listened to others.

I am not looking for a very handsome guy. I don't believe in fairy tales but I love watching those. I am not princess-like. I am UGLY. I am not smart and I am not a good person that's why I have already admitted the truth that I would just be a spinster.

I don't believe in love or maybe I do but I don't believe that it can happen to me. There was only one guy who expressed his deep feelings for me. However, I can't be with him that time because I chose my friends over him. Yeah, I know it simply sucks and now the sucking truth, I'm looking for him. It is so pathetic to know that I befriended the main reason why I left him and it is more pathetic to know that I befriended his cousin so that I could ask for his contact details. I want to apologize for what had happened but I don't have the courage to do that. I believe that I need him for me to move forward. And now, his friend courted me but suddenly he stopped. Maybe he thought I am in love with him (I actually thought about it before but I hate to admit I did). I was hurt when I saw this 'friend' tagged his ex who was a very close friend of mine. I felt so uneasy but then reality hit me and I told myself....'wala na nga sigurong kayang magtagal sa ugali ko at sa pagmumuka ko...'

I always wish myself happiness. Right now there is a huge hole in my heart. I want to smile once again. An innocent smile because this is what I want to show when I die. I want to die fulfilled. I want to die helping others. I want to be a hero. I can't be superman because I can't fly and I'm afraid of heights. I simply want to be me.

Jinky's life is not worth remembering for now but someday...this blog would be appreciated by many...hope so...

Graduation Speech

“Life is a constant battle for survival. As we grow older, the rules change on daily basis. Our mission is not to escape, but to survive; not to deal with triumph, but to deal with failure; not to run away from fear but to master it. It takes courage to keep on fighting. So if you feel like rules have shifted one step higher, deal it with greater faith and never ever surrender.”—a text I received from a friend of mine last April 3, 6:51 pm.

For the past 16 years of my life, I spent my life staying inside a vast room they call classroom. My life is focused on how I could make my teachers praise me, my parents proud of me and my colleagues acknowledge me. I read a lot of books. I dig the pits of the internet for my research. I suffered extreme haggardness throughout this period only to find out that this is a mere practice...a preparation once I stepped out of this place they call classroom.

BELIEVE AND ACHIEVE-that’s the theme of our graduation. ‘This is not the end, this is just the beginning.’ They say that graduation opens a new phase of our lives. After graduation, we ought to face a life beyond what our teachers taught us about. Life is described by many as abysmal. Something that is filled with lunatic, egotistical, and hypocrite individuals but then we have to keep positive and attain our goals. Don’t give your everything in doing something instead do the right thing. Give up and let go if necessary. There are still a lot of options that await you. All you have to do is to put away what’s blocking your eyes from seeing those. Believe in the reality of your dreams. The secret of fulfilment in life is having your faith shaken but still having it…stronger and deeper.

Learn that life does not simply ends in death. Your life may continue as long as there are people who appreciate you. Without them, even if you still exist in this physical world, you’re as good as dead. It is never wrong to cry and to fall sometimes. You can cry all day but don’t be miserable. You can fall as many times as you go through life but don’t allow these falls to encumber you.

Success is not just about the luxuries you obtained. Success is learning to love who you are and what you have. Failure, on the other hand, is hating yourself.

It’s funny to think that it took me 16 years to realize all of the things that I mentioned here and to be honest, I do not know the things that await me now that I am leaving my student life. Will I be a student of post-graduate studies? Will I be a mentor this time? Will I just be an employee? Or will I be an innovator just like what my professor wants us to be? One thing is for sure, my teachers have taught me enough about math, science and history. My classmates have shared to me memories of happiness and despair. My experiences and others’ experiences have moulded me. I am Jinky and I am a believer and soon to be an achiever.

I believe life is what’s on your mind and for us to survive, we have to conquer things before it conquers us. We have to use our brain for it not to get rotten. Learning something old doesn’t mean being so outdated. As we grow older, our lives create a history and history is never obsolete.

Killua Zoldick and Haruno Sakura

i feel sad because of my freaking chicken pox that left MARKS on my face...(there are two huge blisters on my nose)....so i tried to focus myself on learning something...hmmmm...how to use the adobe photoshop cs3 extended...this is not the latest version actually but this is what i have in this computer so...that's it!(dunno what to say)

my subject in this artwork is killua and sakura as lovers. hmmm...in a facebook group where i belong, my character name is haruno sakura/hatake kakashi/namikaze minato. My partner is suppossed to be sasuke and i personally like sasuke for sakura but i do not like the sasuke of our group...aside from the fact that he's a child..hmmm..whatever...i just don't feel like playing as his lover so i have decided that i'll just get another character from my favorite anime who happened to be killua zoldick of hunterxhunter. Well, killua is like my childhood crush..haha so if i have to choose between sasuke and killua, i'll definitely choose killua. I really really like his character and of course his attitude. He's a loyal friend...very.

let's start. first i looked for killua's picture and so as sakura's. It's easy but my internet connection is kinda slow so it took me some time.

Killua Zoldick

i already cropped this pic to save some of my precious time

this is for my sakura pic...i have to erase sasuke

Using Adobe Photoshop Cs3 extended, i was able to erase sasuke and the background color. On killua, i have to erase the bird on his hand and then i drag sakura's pic after several resizing of her image on killua's window.

hmmmm...then i have to make the background color disappear but instead of erasing the background, i just used the quick selection tool and then drag it to another window.

this is the background that i'd be using. I did this after combining killua and sakura's picz...it's not good i know but it's better than nothing..hihi

and so they are together now but this time i have to work with the huge space left so after saving this, i opened my microsoft office powerpoint and type their names.

and then that's it. i'm done finally...it took me more than an hour..i think..haha..i'm so slow...

Now i have a sakura plus killua picture, Hooray! this is a dream come true! haha