simplySIMPLETON

I thought seeing "it" with another was just fine

I thought watching "it" from a distance was enough

I thought making "it" happy would bring me happiness as well

but

reality came to me again and woke me up from this dream

all the "i thought's" had vanished and sadness welcomed me again...

I am not fine seeing "it" with another creature

It was not enough to watch "it" from a distance

It would not bring me happiness when I made "it" happy

I am not a hypocrite but I do admit that I am a simpleton...

I wish I never knew "it"

I wish I could I forget all about "it"

I wish I could be

with "it"...

oh damn!...so stupid!

My Name in Different Languages

Korean name:

Surname : Korean surname is the
last number in your year of birth .
- 0: Park
- 1: Kim
- 2: Shin
- 3: Choi
- 4: Song
- 5: Kang
- 6: Han
- 7: Lee
- 8: Sung
- 9: Jung

Middle name : is your month of
birth .
- 1: Yong
- 2: Ji
- 3: Je
- 4: Hye
- 5: Dong
- 6: Sang
- 7: Ha
- 8: Hyo
- 9: Soo
- 10: Eun
- 11: Hyun
- 12: Rae

Name : is your date of birth .
- 1: Hwa
- 2: Woo
- 3: Joon
- 4: Hee
- 5: Kyo
- 6: Kyung
- 7: Wook
- 8: Jin
- 9: Jae
- 10: Hoon
- 11: Ra
- 12: Bin
- 13: Sun
- 14: Ri
- 15: Soo
- 16: Rim
- 17: Ah
- 18: Ae
- 19: Neul
- 20: Mun
- 21: In
- 22: Mi
- 23: Ki
- 24: Sang
- 25: Byung
- 26: Seok
- 27: Gun
- 28: Yoo
- 29: Sup
- 30: Won
- 31: Sub

---Hmmm...since i was born in November 16, 1990, my name is...

Chonum PARK HYUN RIM amnida...=)

Chinese name:

Surname (first character)

Yu

Given Name (middle character)

Zhan

profound

Given Name (last character):

ning

repose, serenity, peace; peaceful

---this one is my Chinese name

Wo shi YU ZHAN NING!

Japanese name

Shinki Yu/ Jinki Yu

---this one is my Japanese name

watashi no namae wa Shinki Yu".

Italian Name:

Giacinta Giordano

God chose your birthday for a reason.

Mi chiamo Giacinta Giordano!

---Some day, I will travel the whole world to know my real name in different languages!that's a goal!

Vedic Relationship Guide

· November 16, 1990

· 05:50 AM

· Manila, Philippines

Your Attitude to Relationships as Shaped by Your Birth Star or Nakshatra Swati

Swati is the fifteenth Nakshatra and is ruled by the north node, Rahu. It resides in the sign of Libra and its Western star name is Arcturus.

You have an extreme need to maintain harmony and balance in relationships and you avoid conflict and struggles at all costs. You may also avoid taking a stand because of your fear of confrontation and subsequent failures of relationships. Normally, once you find something in common with someone, you stay close for some time. However, your relationships normally lack depth and can't withstand turbulent phases. Even though your relationships may appear to be working fine from the outside, these may lack passion and intensity. You avoid thinking about the problems in a relationship, as you are always worried about the negative consequences of bringing things up.

You have a long-term perspective on building relationships. You like to plan and move slowly, but steadily. You do not mind making small sacrifices, even if the immediate rewards remain uncertain. However, many times such relationships may not move forward because of the lack of consistent nurturing. It is difficult for you to seize on the rewarding relationships, as your efforts remain scattered across many possible choices.

You love the social interaction and are known for your charm and grace. You are a born diplomat and you know how to go around the difficult issues without getting too involved. You are also known as a peacemaker and have the uncanny ability to help conflicted people see each other points of views and resolve the disputes. You can go to any length to fit into prevalent social and cultural structures. You are a conformist in every manner of social expectation. You will go to any length to maintain such an exterior even at the cost of your instincts and authentic self-expression. Profound social networking is very often the cause of your rapid business success. Your yearn to constantly improve your financial status at all costs, which can cause the deterioration of beautiful relationships in the process.

Once you are in a relationship, you make an immense efforts to please. You believe in going with the flow and are very polite in expressing your contradictory views. It is very rare for you to have confrontation, so your relationships move ahead slowly, over time. You have an urge to learn and to create value for those you are in relationship with. Normally, you are quite happy to see those you care for do well, and receive the rewards they deserve.

However, you need to be aware of the dangers of indulging in worthless and self-destructive relationships. You can learn to manipulate or get manipulated in your urge for reckless materialistic growth. You need to look for the people whose presence can help you foster and grow your talents. You should also work on cultivating a higher self-esteem and creating a stronger sense of identity.

---maybe, it's right...im slow,,,"SLOWLY BUT SURELY" is not applicable in my style...im just plainly SLOW...nothing's next...ha-ha.I still believe in true love...eeeewww its kinda corny and very old fashioned but yes i admit...i still believe in it but at the same time, i believe that it's not for me. he-he,,,

---oh m'n..let's just stop talking about true love,,,it feels awkward...

DOREMIFASOLASIDO

wow...this time i watched DOREMIFASOLASIDO...well, it was an old korean film...not so old..it just flooded the cinemas in 2008 if I am not mistaken,,,The story is overly dramatic....i shed too much tears because of this movie. A story of love, friendship and rivalry. It was so painful to watch what happened in Shin Eun Gyu's life after his girl decided to break up with him. He tried to accept it but it was just too hard for him to bear. After a goodbye concert, he met an accident and eventually loss his understanding. He acted like a child. Even if it was already late, Im glad Hee Woon finally set Joon Won free...In the end, Eun Gyu became a normal being again...

"i can only wait for you

i couldn't say anything..."

--totally this film showed us the pain of letting someone go even how much we wanted to be by his or her side...how to be a true friend even if being one means sacrificing your own happiness...

I used to like some one in my life. The feeling was mutual but then three of my friends liked him as well. One shared to me her tears. The other one confessed to me how special that man was and the last one, was someone who treated me as her best friend. I could not afford to break the hearts of these people who made me feel important so I acted like I am mad at him. Too nice, im good at acting so he easily believed in it. The day he left after a year...I did not even had the courage to smile at him again. I did not think its proper. Wanna know if I regret it...???no...ITS FOR MY FRIENDS' SAKE.

Baby and Me

Well, I just watched Baby and Me starring my ultimate korean crush, Jang Geun Suk as Han Joon Su and a cute little creature...a baby...Moon Mason as Wooh Ram. The story was all about an 18 year old boy who suddenly became a fathEr. Someone put baby wooh ram to his food kart while he was in the grocery. Before, he was a trouble maker. He even smoked inside their campus but when he became a father to wooh ram all by himself...i mean no one helped him aside from a girl who had a crush on him...he learned how to be independent and be responsible for his own life for the baby's sake. He encountered a lot of sufferings that were commonly experienced by a young father who knew nothing about being a dad. He attempted to abandon the baby but the calling was to strong for him to resist so he failed.He was suspended in his school for bringing the baby with him. He worked as a waiter in a bar, he distributed brochures along the night street of Seoul and steal a drank man's wallet. Wow..quite disastrous..isn't it? but he was able to overcome all of this and eventually became a FATHER to Wooh ram.

Hmm...I realized that while being a mom is hard, being a father is a little chaotic. When a mom is crying because her baby is sick, the father should find a way to help his baby. When a mom is giving birth to her child, the father should stand nervously and helplessly wait at the corner. When the lives of the baby and the mother are in the brink of death, the decision of who must stay lies in the hand of the father. When a mother cannot give money to her child, the father should find a job to support financially the family.

A mother who's in pain can cry in public and it's not wrong.

A mother who lost her child can mock the father and it's not forbidden.

but a father...he can't

..not because it is forbidden but because,,,the public sees a father as a strong being who shall not cry whenever problems get on his way. Whether it is because of his pride or not, he shall not cry...

Jang Geun Suk, in this movie, is not an ideal father at first but if i am to choose a father for my...maybe...future offspring...I will gladly choose a father who's so imperfect like the role he played but so loving as he is...

..."Young or old. Fathers have always been the same"

thanks to this movie!

JiaNmeetsGian

Gian: Gumaganda ka ngayon jian ah

Jian:wala kang pakelam

Gian: Bakit ba ang sungit mo?

Jian:wala kang pakelam

Gian: Ikaw na nga ang pinupuri, ikaw pa mataray!

Jian: wala kang pakelam

Gian: Ano bang problema mo?

Jian: WALA KA KASING PAKELAM!!!

---minsan kunteng pakiramdam aman dyan..masyado kang manhid...kailangan ba lahat ineexplain? kailangan ba lagi kang pansinin at magpacute sayo para malaman mong mahalaga ka at kahit walang katuturan sinasabi mo, pinahahalagahan ko pa rin yun...kahit corny ka at para akong kumakain ng nilagang mais sa agahan, inihaw na mais sa tanghalian, mais con yelo sa merienda, cornic sa hapunan at CORNED BEEF sa midnight snack, napapangiti pa rin ako sa joke mong baliw lang ang natatawa...siguro nga baliw ako,,,corny ka naman...kinikilabutan ako sa tuwing maaalala ko ang kakornihan mo...kung paanong sa isang ngiti mo nahulog ang puso ko, sa isang tingin mo kinilig to the bones ako...at sa isang iglap...nasaktan ako...

---corny na rin ako ngayon at sa...TUWING MAALALA KONG NAGKAGUSTO KO SAYO...pakshOooot...NATATAWA NA LANG AKO...

YoU'rE BeAutifUL

The love of my life has gone

Too bad I can’t find it anymore

Too bad I can no longer be with it

It has vanished long before I realized its worth

The memories are full of pain

Thunder, lightning, rain flooded my heart all at once

Each time I see iit from afar

Something pinches my heart

The love of my life has gone

I can’t hold onto him

His far away and I feel like I’m a cast away

I sometimes wonder

Did I let him go?

Or He did?

Or...simply we did not know each other

The love of my life has gone

But the memories are still in here

Being here watching you from a distance

Is like waiting for a star to fall down

The love of my life has gone

I hate this feeling

I should have run from the beginning

I should have ignored the calling

But what can I do?

I can’t stop it and if I did...I’ll die

The love of my life has gone

I don’t know when I can have him

I am not sure if I have to continue enduring the pain

Or simply accept the fact that he’s not for me...

-I was inspired by You’re Beautiful...Somehow I can relate myself to it...A star...the brightest star and the frustrated star. It seems like I was born to watch that star and let that star be in its place because that’s where it belongs. If I try to reach for it, I have to search the whole galaxy and if I try to hold it I’ll just be hurt over and over again. My favourite star, please twinkle more...don’t lose your light...the dark road I am taking...please help me with it...please never ever conceal yourself...I will not bother you, that’s a promise but please stay where you are...don’t let me lose that bit of happiness that’s left in my heart

Today is a painful day. I wish the water could wash away the pain of my heart just like the way it washes away the dirt of my body. I wish it’s easy to forget. I wish it’s possible to be numb...because right now, something within me kills me. Am I destined to cry all my life? When can I be happy?

I could no longer distinguish which is more painful...Is’t the pain of letting it go or the pain of keeping it here in my stubborn heart?

PAIN---I thought I could just back out once I realized it’s hurting but then now I realized, there’s no way I could escape from the fangs of suffering.

LOVE---I don’t want to believe in it. I tried to deceive myself but each time I see it, I could not control myself. It seems like my blood goes up to my head. My heart beats fast. My mind goes blank. Everything’s unexplainable.

...I'M BROKEN...again